Story of 2012

This post gonna be the last post in this blog.
I'm not leaving, but just move to my second account blog.

There are so many memories that i shared to all of you, readers!

in this last post i wanna share about my whole life in 2012.

i never imagine before that my 2012 gonna be the most complicated year in my life.

Here they are...

January

-Had a dinner new year's eve with my lovely boyfriend and my awesome bestfriend at Bober Cafe Bandung

-Hell yeah finally, start worked at The Trans Luxury Hotel as pre-opening team :D

February

-My birthday. Nothing special even i was with my boyfriend but he has ruined my day. Cried and he doesn't fvckin care.

March

-My precious mom's birthday. For the first time i bought her a yellow bag from my own sallary :)

-The end of month always made me scared because something usual happened with my relationship. Argue.

April

-Skip this month. Tottaly forget what a priceless memories in this month. hahaha

May

-Surgery! this month is my weakness month. Had almost 3 weeks sick leave from hotel. Big thanks to my boss; Mr. Garna who has given that permission.

-I had a half-skin-head hair LOL xD but it was cool ! hahaha

June

-My graduation ceremony. I was so freakin' happy. My mom and my brother saw this priceless moment. How lucky i am to have them. I wish my father saw me from heaven :')

-As usual, the end of month always ruins my mood.

July

-My lovely boyfriend's born day. i gave him a long sleeve black shirt. it was made him so cool and good looking :) i love him :*

August September October

-Nothing special memories. Flat. All i remember only at the end of each month my boyfriend always ruins my mood. Arguing for reasons that make no sense.

November

-So freaking happy with this month. November again and my second anniversary with my boyfriend. we had a dinner with him at Maja House on November, 30th. Our 2nd anniversary. He gave me a soft lovely kisses. I love him at that time. But 4 hours later it was become a nightmare.

-I'm trully deeply in love with him but honestly i fvckin hate him when he always seek for my mistake in the past.

-Anniversary going to broke up. He dumped me and i hate him.

December

-This is my december. I'm single, am i?  Still hard to believe it.

-He already dumped me. He said that he NEVER love me in his life. Seriously, i cried when i heard that. How come the-only-man-i-shared-life-in-this-2-years dare to said like that? You know, it was like my heart beat's stop for a minute.

-Standing applause for him. After he said that he never love me, for the next day he said that he trully in love with me and for the next day he's gone. HAHAHA

 

 

GOODBYE MY PAST IN 2012

HELLO MY FUTURE IN 2013

 

Harus Terpisah

Telah lama aku bertahan dengan kekuatan rasa yang kupunya, masih ku harapkan kamu bisa mengubah sifat keegoisanmu.
Demi rasa yang ku sebut cinta, demi rasa yang kau sebut omong kosong.
Masih aku tak mengenal lelah ketika kamu bertubi-tubi memberikan luka hingga aku hampir mati.
Masih kamu tak mengenal puas ketika aku berkali-kali memberikan maaf hingga kamu menjadi terbiasa.

Sendiri, sendiri ku diam. Diam dan merenung,
merenungkan djalan yang kan membawaku pergi. Pergi tuk menjauh, menjauh darimu; darimu yang mulai berhenti. Berhenti mencoba, mencoba bertahan, bertahan untuk terus bersamaku

Kita memang telah bersama, kita memang saling cinta tapi lambat laun kita tak bisa untuk saling menyukai. Sikapmu mematikan asaku, kamu berbeda.
Tawaku memang tawamu, tapi sedihku tidak lagi menjadi sedihmu. aku bertahan mempertahankan mimpi indah kita, kamu menghancurkannya menjadi tak tersisa.

Ku berlari kau terdiam, ku menangis kau tersenyum, ku berduka kau bahagia, ku pergi kau kembali, ku coba meraih mimpi, kau coba tuk hentikan mimpi

Aku tak akan menahanmu lagi, kamu yang sudah tak cinta, kamu yang kini berbeda.

Memang kita tak kan menyatu