Sunday, January 30, 2011

my first thirty ( second monthsary ) without you

LDR is typically an intimate relationship that takes place when the partners are separated by a considerable distance . -wikipedia.org


I long for the day I'll dream of your kiss, when your lips will caress mine for real, when your touch makes me alive again, and the sight of you arouses all my senses. When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you, not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I'm with you. It makes me forget the distance.
Everytime I hear someone say those words "it cannot last" it makes me so mad. Through the days I worry, through the days I tremble, but no matter how much I try, I cannot deni that love can exist, that miles do not cross within a person's heart. they have to believe something unimaginable can be possible.

today ( January, 30th 2011 ) is the first day since you leave me to Balikpapan and also the first time of my thirty -second month without you. Did you know at the first time how scared I imagine what will happen next to my thirty-eighth month without you? i'll spend 6 months without you, I can not imagine how tortured I miss you but then i realize I don't feel it much when you are far from me because your love has created something in my heart that no matter the distance, the closer your heart is to mine. Although only by listening to your voice over the phone, read your sentence through short messages, see your face through a web cam I'll try to stick with it all. I am waiting and hoping and wishing for the time, when we can be together again. See there's place in me where your fingerprints still rest, your kisses still linger and your whispers softly echo. It is the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me.

"i am yours
how ever distant you maybe,
there blows no wind but
wafts your scent to me,
there sings no bird but
calls your name to me,
each memory that has left
its trace with me
linger forever has a part of me
i am yours"

Derek and The Dominos - I am Yours


somebody told me:
"You don't even have to see someone to love someone"
yeah, i could love you even you are so far away from me, even i can't see you ...



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