my board house, reminds me of you :)

This blog will tell you about part of my room that always remind me of you. Today i come back to my board house after your departure to Balikpapan and i realize that for 6 month later you would not come here :( so here they are...

THE LAPTOP

Do you know why i put this Acer Aspire 4930 to our memories? My laptop with the solitaire game? Yeah, because in this spot you asked me “Do you want to be my girlfriend? Do you want to have a relationship with me?” i didn’t believe when you’re said that. I just tough you’re kidding me because ‘how come a boy ask a girl to be his girlfriend while he play the solitaire?’ hahaha but i knew you’re just too nervous like i did. That’s my romantic awkward moment even tough without a rose, without a back sound, without a chocolate, ONLY YOU AND ME :)

THE BED

This is my favorite spot, we spend all day long together, we have a tickle fight, we have a nap together, laugh and cry together. There are so many memories about us and i will never forget it. when you hold my hand for the first time, when you kiss my forehead for the first time, when you hug me for the first time. Do you remember in my bed also you said ‘I LOVE YOU’ a few day before your departure to Balikpapan?hahaha as you know, i already wait you to say that words after the first day you and me become WE :)

THE TOOTH BRUSH

See that two brushes? The white striped green one is mine and the orange one is yours :) i don’t know why i still put your brush, it makes me feel like you are here, use that brush. Hahaha maybe i will change your brush when you are come to my board house again.

THE TOWEL

Hey sayang, this is your tazmania towel right? You always use this towel after you take a shower in my board house and also after you take Wudhu. This towel smell like YOU . hmmmm :p

THE JACKET

You leave your jacket in my board house, it’s very useful for me. It’s warm me when i get cold, it makes me feel like i hug you even tough you are not here :(

THE SAJADDAH

This is the most favorite stuff in my board house. 2 sajadah, 1 mukena for me and 1 sarong for you. Alhamdulillah, we are Muslim couple. I’m very great full to ALLAH SWT, because you are not only could love me with your heart but also you could be my priest. You always teach me how to not afraid with other except Allah SWT, you always teach me how to be a good girl in a wild world with this. YOU are THE ONLY ONE MAN ( after my father ) do that !

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There are so many spot in my board house that always remind me of you. There’s our little secret too :p I hope you always remember me, even tough we are in long distance relationship. I hope our love strength will keep our faithful :) i’ll be missing you, dear. And i’ll wait you come to my board house on August :)

NIGHTMARE

OMG, gimana bisa gue mimpiin cewek itu lagi??! cewek yang dulu pernah gangguin kehidupan gue ampe bikin gue stres ama sikapnya yang bisa dibilang saiko, cewek yang dulu sangat amat gue benci karena selalu bikin khawatir sama mantan gue itu. FCVK ! dan semalem dia dateng lagi ke mimpi gue? astagfirullah....
dan kali ini dia mengganggu hubungan gue dengan Faisal. dia mengambil perhatian dan merebut perasaan Faisal dari gue, untungnya cuma mimpi. tapi tetep aja serem kalo diinget" mimpi sialan itu. dan di mimpi gue itu, Faisal dengan gampangnya dapat terpengaruh :((( ya untungnya cuma mimpi...
ya Allah, kenapa mesti cewek itu lagi sih?padahal semua alasan tentang kenapa gue benci sama cewek itu udah gue anggap biasa aja, udah gue ikhlasin dan gue maafin meski emang gak akan pernah gue lupain. kenapa mesti cewek itu yang gak ada hubungannya dengan pacar gue yg sekarang? :((

untungnya itu cuma mimpi, mungkin karena guenya yang lagi kangen banget sama Faisal. masih ada sekitar 178 hari lagi untuk menunggu dia balik ke Bandung :( masih panjang hal-hal yang mungkin bakal kejadian dan gue tau apa yang bakal terjadi apa itu bikin gue sama Faisal makin bertahan atau sebaliknya (amit-amit Ya Allah) tapi gue percaya dan yakin kalo Faisal disana juga nggak akan macem-macem karena sebisa mungkin gue jaga kepercayaan dia supaya hubungan kita lancar sampai akhirnya kita ketemu lagi nanti.
untungnya itu cuma mimpi, gue juga gak akan rela kalo Faisal kenapa-napa disana selama jauh dari gue. gue nggak bisa bayangin kalo nantinya hal yang sama kayak nightmare gue itu kejadian beneran :(

sayang, aku kangen. rasanya gak ketemu kamu kali ini beda, jauhnya bener-bener berasa. dan sampai 6 bulan mendatang aku harus membiasakan diri aku tanpa kamu, harus membiasakan diri gak meluk dan dipeluk kamu, membiasakan diri gak dicium kamu, membiasakan diri tertawa tanpa kamu dan disaat aku menangis aku harus membiasakan diri dulu tanpamu yang selalu nenangin aku dgn meluk aku :'(
tapi aku tau demi untuk bertemu kamu 6 bulan mendatang aku harus rela jarak dan waktu memisahkan aku dan kamu, aku rela untuk masa depanmu.
sayang, aku kangen sampai aku tak tahan menahan rasa ini...

i love you, did you know that?

"I want all of you, forever. you and me, everyday"

dear Faisal,

We are 1 hours/nearly 734 miles away and also Java sea separates us. Time passes by too slowly: seconds feel like minutes, minutes feel like hours and hours feel like days…when we’re apart. Everyone is against our love for each other: they say we won’t ever make it in the end, but we’re going to prove them wrong.

i miss you already.i miss everything about you, i miss the time we spent together, i miss the time when i'm with you. there are still about 180 days longer to see you, i'm not fear the next time you'll be changed because i know you are not a man who was easily influenced. everyday i pray that you are okay wherever you are and here i'll keep waiting for you.

I always look forward to the day i get to see you again. I admit, it’s not easy. It’s not easy seeing my couple friends together, it’s not easy having things in my room that constantly remind you of you, it’s not easy just receiving text messages or hearing your voice every night on the phone. Now that i think about it, distance is the last thing i should even be measuring in this relationship; measure my love, and that’s something i can’t even measure myself.

"missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will."

youmeandthedistance ❤

i've found my other half, now here's the journey

I’m big on tracking the days we’ve spent together and all of that, we’ve been spent together about 96 days and we'll separate about 183 days !


I just love keeping track of days!

THE BEST THING WHEN I'M WITH YOU

hey Faisal, i always remember when you do this to me, it makes me feel i fallin' love everyday with you...



kiss my forehead

have the best inside jokes

you keep me safe and warm

nap with me

spend the day in bed with me

you are the one thing that i can hold onto

wipe my tears

kiss you in my bed


have a tickle fight


smell my hair


take me a ride


bring me ice cream

do you remember? :) there are so many the best thing when i'm with you, whenever and wherever if only i'm with you it would be always THE BEST THING for me forever...

DID YOU KNOW HER?

HAYLEY WILLIAMS,
born December, 27th 1988. She is an American singer, song writer, and lead vocalist of the band PARAMORE

there's no word can describe how much i adore her. i adore her voice, her performance, her red hair, her personality and everything about her. i dream someday i'd like to be her, she's my inspiration when i'm on the stage with my band !

my first thirty ( second monthsary ) without you

LDR is typically an intimate relationship that takes place when the partners are separated by a considerable distance . -wikipedia.org

I long for the day I'll dream of your kiss, when your lips will caress mine for real, when your touch makes me alive again, and the sight of you arouses all my senses. When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you, not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I'm with you. It makes me forget the distance.
Everytime I hear someone say those words "it cannot last" it makes me so mad. Through the days I worry, through the days I tremble, but no matter how much I try, I cannot deni that love can exist, that miles do not cross within a person's heart. they have to believe something unimaginable can be possible.

today ( January, 30th 2011 ) is the first day since you leave me to Balikpapan and also the first time of my thirty -second month without you. Did you know at the first time how scared I imagine what will happen next to my thirty-eighth month without you? i'll spend 6 months without you, I can not imagine how tortured I miss you but then i realize I don't feel it much when you are far from me because your love has created something in my heart that no matter the distance, the closer your heart is to mine. Although only by listening to your voice over the phone, read your sentence through short messages, see your face through a web cam I'll try to stick with it all. I am waiting and hoping and wishing for the time, when we can be together again. See there's place in me where your fingerprints still rest, your kisses still linger and your whispers softly echo. It is the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me.

"i am yours
how ever distant you maybe,
there blows no wind but
wafts your scent to me,
there sings no bird but
calls your name to me,
each memory that has left
its trace with me
linger forever has a part of me
i am yours"
Derek and The Dominos - I am Yours

somebody told me:
"You don't even have to see someone to love someone"
yeah, i could love you even you are so far away from me, even i can't see you ...