It’s Who I Turned Out To Be…

I want to hurt, to be hurt!
I want pain, I need pain!
I feel dead, inside.
I feel dead, and I need to feel alive again!

I feel so hurt, I’ve been hurt!
I feel pain, oh the pain!
I’m not dead, I know.
I’m not dead, and this is what makes me feel alive!

But just because I hurt myself
it doesn’t mean I’d ever hurt you
So why then do you look at me
Then slowly turn away (from me)

You turn away from me.
You turn away.

But just because I sin, does it make me a sinner?
Does it make me bad? Does it make me wrong?
Does it make me useless? Does it make me worthless?
Does it mean I should be better? Better than who I am?
Cause this is who I really am. It’s not what I ever wanted to be.
It’s who I turned out to be…

A FAILURE!
A NO-ONE!
A NOTHING!
A FAILURE!
I’M A FAILURE!
Failure…
I’M A FAILURE!
Failure…

So please God, will you help me?
Help me change the way I am
Help me change who I’ve become
Help me grow, please help me grow
Help me Lord, to hold on