you’ve hurt me so much
you don’t even know
you kicked me when i was down
stomped on my heart
you’ve killed me emotionally
i’m a walking body of sadness
i’ll fade away into nowwhere
you’ll hear my voice whisper in the wind
walk a mile in my shoes
see the bomb you’ve set off
the burning destruction
the ruins of my heart
every smile you give me
drives the knife deeper
i can’t deal with you
you’ve fucked my life
how many times must i hurt myself
before you relize you’ve hurt me
you’ve dug me and early grave
but i put myself in it
deep thoughts of me and you
i cut myself to free them
you tell me you don’t love me
i’m done, i’m dead to you
i hate my life
fuck you, fuck everything
i’m so done with life
i’m ready to die
i take an entire bottle of tylenol
and cut your name in my arm
i feel my body dying
my mind so scared
passed out, dying
puking blood , dead
brought back to live
left in a daze
as i wake up in my hopsital room
i can’t stop shaking
deemed insane, locked up
locks with absent keys
everywhere i go, i’m reminded of you
and the attempt i made at my life
i’m up shit creek with out a paddle
i give in and go with the flow
a shadow amung the masses
i reach out to noone
i’m so dead, i could put a gun to my head and not be phased
i’m so deep in self pity
i’ll never get out
twist the knife in my back
so i can feel something
i piss my life away
stuck in this depressing haze
i’m drowning in a sea of dispair
you’re depreiving me of a life line
you’ve done this to me
don’t you feel proud
when you see my name in the obituaries
i hope you feel victorious
open your eyes and see what you’ve done to me
you’ve broken my heart and thrown me down
i stand on this chair
and put the rope around my neck
as i get ready to step off
my life flashes before my eyes
i press pause
and close my eyes
as i step off i relize
i love you but i hate you
rope taut
lifeless swing
lights
cameras
dead
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